After rewatching the episode, i've concluded that it's a favourite of mine. The second time was much more emotional, and I was just a mess.
Understanding Elena's side has been a dream come true. And i'm very grateful that we got to see what she was thinking, even if it led to the demise of those thoughts.
How she thought he was exciting, when they first met. How she remembered the first moment she let herself get lost in his allure in 1x19. How in 3x10 she knew he loved her and shouldn't have let him kiss her but let it happen anyway because a part of her just wanted to know what it would feel like. How in 3x19 all she wanted to do was kiss him, to feel his lips against hers. They finally did something right with the sirebond Story Line, is what i wanna say, but nothing is really right with the sirebond story line but *thank god, ughh even if it was really nothing knew. But to all those who used, 'it's because she was sired to him' now can kindly let it go.
I think you need to understand, when we reach Elena digging through her stuff and calling Luke for drugs, at that point, i broke. Her memories had been messed with, some of the key ones that held importance to her, were no longer about Damon, or 'wrong'. But at that point, she still loved him even with her messed up memories. You could see how scared she was of losing it, she looked like she was grasping onto all she had to keep him there.
But Alaric, is able to calm her down, he and we finally understands why she's had trouble being honest. She didn't want to betray Stefan. She didn't want to admit she fell for another person while she was with him. Even if they all knew it. She didn't want to be that girl, the girl who loved them both, the girl that Katherine was to them. I've always said one of Elena's key problems is her identity, and I actually made a post about it on tumblr a year go about just that. Elena feared being like Katherine and admitting she loved Damon, was admitting she was like her. Which is why, it terrified her. It wasn't that loving Damon scared her, it was that she now had one more thing in common with Katherine.
Which brings me to the necklace part of the episode. The key moment. Firstly that scene emotionally wrecked me yesterday. I loved the way they filmed it, with Damon in '1994' living the moment again just as Elena was living it in her mind. It made me feel like they were connected again, even if they were apart. It was beautifully shot, and i couldn't be more happy with how it ended up.
Now the understanding of the moment. And the bridges it builds from 3x22 to 4x07. Elena talks about how it was his most selfless moment at the time, how she knew his pain, she could understand him, they spent the entire summer together she saw a different side to him during that summer, which i can only imagine because they never really showed us anything (but i imagine roadtrips and seeing each other in a different life, how he would distract her from the stefan search, how they'd play car games...okay okay back to real issue), Anyway she talks about how even though it hurt him he did it for her. He gave her hope. He gave her what she needed, when a lesser man wouldn't. She saw the good in him, That necklace no longer represented Stefan and their love, but about how Damon would do anything for her, even if it wasn't right for him.
But do you guys remember it was not the only time he returned the necklace, each time added to that feeling, maybe not all at once, but subconsciously and subtlety. In 4x01 she remembers when he compelled her to forget. And you can see it in her face how utterly confused she is, how taken back she is. She finally thinks she gets Damon, but the more she gets to know him the more it unravels, she sees the good in him, the selflessness. He talks about being selfish all the time and has done some pretty selfish things, but around her she sees it differently the selflessness outweighs his selfishness. Those feelings were in the back of her mind floating around, but she decided to put it all behind a door and lock it because she chose Stefan and she loved him, and they could be happy. But then things got crazy in the beginning of S4 and she couldn't keep the door locked, Damon was helping her and he understood her in ways that she couldn't feel Stefan was. That was what it took, everything that was behind that door plus everything that had been happening just finally got to her, and she knew she had to let Stefan go. In fact they both knew. Stefan and Elena knew it was coming, but they just didn't want it to face the truth so they just lived in the moment until the moment ended and they had to face reality.
Okay enough Elena analysis and back to the episode.
Ughh I'm not a fan of Steroline or Carenzo. Just no to both. Caroline deserves better than both. I think im part of the minority but i just don't like it. And i'm pretty sure it stems down to me not liking Enzo.
I liked Enzo until...he killed himself...and then blamed Stefan...and then decided he was dumb and wanted to come back to life.
I'm sorry Enzo but you're crazy and I don't understand you at all. You make no sense. I still don't know how he managed to be part of the regular cast? I'd rather have had the twins play a bigger role than enzo.
Anyway moving on. Stefan. I actually have had no problems with Stefan this episode. Everyone keeps going on about how he shouldn't give up on his friends and blah blah...but I get his side, he lost his brother, the one person who was supposed to always be there, whether or not they were at odds ends or being brothers. He didn't care as long as he was alive. And not only that we see a bit of the lengths he's gone to. HE spent two months chasing ever lead, only to be disappointed again and again. Imagine thinking this might be the one, only to find out it's not. 2 months of that sounds like torture. And I get it, he gave up. But Enzo saying he's not a brother to Damon. Just stop where you are Enzo. Just Stop. Stefan's and Damon's relationship is a rocky place, but if you ever said they don't love each other and they wouldn't do anything for each other you'd be lying. Because that's exactly what has happened, Stefan did everything he could think of and it wasn't enough, he accepted the reality that he wouldn't be able to solve this problem, and he moved on. Death happens, death is supposed to be final, it's rational to accept it. You can't spend the rest of your life on pause.
LEts talk about Bamon!
I'm in l o v e with them. I love the banter, I love everything that they are in this dimension. Hahahah. The frustration, the cuteness, hahaha Bonnie + teddy, Damon + Dancing, Damon + Pancakes haahahah just kill me with all these feelings bubbling inside of me. I'm so curious what's gonna happen in their world, and who's with them. I don't think it's Katherine, I think Nina's made it clear no more katherine. But *hmm i dunno you can never trust actors.
I also thought about Lexi being there. And Omgawd it would be Damon's personal hell.
I like your idea
Ruby that they need the solar eclipse to garner enough energy. Hopefully it turns out okay. I'm gonna be mad if Bonnie doesn't make it out alive. Just give us a nice happy ending!!!
Okay lets wrap it up. This is ridiculously long, but i guess i had a lot of bottled up feels. Anyway so far this season is gold!
Let's hope the ratings grow, cause it's kinda sad that the Flash had a higher premiere than TVD.
Let's hope the ratings grow, cause it's kinda sad that the Flash had a higher premiere than TVD.
Well if you do somehow get a chance to watch it later, let me know what you think. 
Hope you're doing well. 
